Introspective note to self follows...

I spent the day before yesterday with Jim and Boris talking about everything. About life and world views. The world is in an important transition, the Net is in an important transition and my life is in transition. The venture market is turning from a buyer's market to a seller's market. I'm moving from Tokyo to a home in Chiba with no city water, city sewage or gas. I'm in a point in my life where I am thinking deeply about what I really want to do, how I want to live my life and what matters to me. The discussion with Jim and Boris was really helpful.

Later, I talked to Sarah, who is a lawyer, but also someone who is studying Sufism. She pushed back on my model and presented an amazingly thoughtful view on giving and receiving.

I went to bed early and woke up at midnight. It reminded me of Bill Murray in Lost in Translation. I turned on my computer and tried to connect to the Internet through the hotel network and I got the message, "Sorry! Internet service is temporarily unavailable. Please try again later."

I sat in bed thinking... Then I remembered the DVD of My Dinner with Andre that Jim had given me, so I popped it into the Powerbook. Amazing. It was an inspiring movie about a dinner conversation about life and being alive.

And here I am. Thoughts swirling in my mind. Completely disconnected. Thinking about myself, my family, my friends, democracy, the world, and the laws of physics. Thinking about ethics, virtue, love, responsibility and life.

Memories that are triggered:

My Tai Ji teacher Chungliang Al Huang asking us why we're all in such a hurry. Why we love efficiently and speed so much. If the end of the game is death, the most efficient thing to do is die. The point is to live.

"...and look at your house. You would see what an alien from another planet would see. You would see that you're living in the home of an insane robot." - Timothy Leary

I don't want to be an insane robot...

It's amazing how highly contextual thoughts become when you think without goals. How everything you hear seems to fit into your model yet pull things apart. I'm not going to try to explain what I'm thinking and I'm not sure if I'm going to post this entry. This is really a note to myself to remember this moment.

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Thanks Joi,

I feel lucky that you can express so well the swirling activity in your brain. (Lucky that it is available for me to read and connect to)

Peace, Mark

reminded me of this quote:

To the being fully alive, the future is not ominous but a promise; it surrounds the present as a halo. It consists of possibilities that are felt as a possession of what is now and here. In life that is truly life, everything overlaps and merges. But all too often we exist in apprehensions of what the future may bring, and are divided within ourselves. Even when not overanxious, we do not enjoy the present because we subordinate it to that which is absent. Because of the frequency of this abandonment of the present to the past and anticipations of the future, come to constitute an esthetic idea. Only when the past ceases to trouble and anticipations of the future are not perturbing is a being wholly united with his environment and therefore fully alive. Art celebrates with a peculiar intensity the moments in which the past reenforces the present and in which the future is a quickening of what now is. -- John Dewey

Joi, please add "Neoteny Employees" in your deep thinking.....we have been talking about you this morning here in Tokyo. :-)

Meantime, did you see Ben and Mena appeared on CNN Headline News?

Yes. I was thinking of all of you too Minami-san. ;-)

It looks like all the John Dewey sentence above can be summed up with:

Ichi Go Ichi e

一期一会

(Sorry if the kanjis are not the good ones..)

Thanks JY for your brevity!

:-)

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