Happy New Year.

I was part of an interesting conversation today about mentors and I described my mother as one of my mentors. My mother died 15 years ago after struggling with cancer for about 2 decades. Sitting here pondering the New Year and the past, my thoughts returned to my mother who was my friend, parent and mentor. I pulled up some entries from a diary that she kept on her computer. For some reason I feel compelled to share an excerpt from her diary.

I miss my mother very much but I still hear her voice clearly.

Slightly edited for brevity and grammar.

Momoko Ito
5/21/94(Sat.)

It is 2:20am. I just finished watching "Anatomy of Murder". Funny. I hardly watch TV, especially after having such evening!

I woke up feeling great this morning at 6:00am, cooked breakfast, ate a lot, cheerfully active all day until suddenly hit by nausea and dizziness. I had to skip Mimi's hearty dinner but now I'm feeling OK.

I was suddenly hit by this feeling of tremendous happiness and decided to start a diary just to leave my feelings in writing. I'll be as faithful as I can to continue it.

No matter how hard I examine my feelings, trying to find some fault in my strange sense of happiness which I've continued to feel through all my objectively-speaking hard life, can't find it. I am genuinely happy even under extreme physical discomfort. How do you explain that? I have no complaints, however.

At this moment as I'm about to go to sleep, the end of a day of funny ups and downs, I feel so happy that I have to write. I've always loved people - I love so intensely through my life. Tonight I feel I am so much loved by my beloved ones that the feeling is overwhelming. Every occasion I had to be together with you, though not often enough for me, I always had such excitement to discover that I can communicate with other human beings beyond language. With you I could share the understanding of the universe without knowing any scientific truth about it. You have been the confirmation of my many most fundamental thoughts. There are so many names I can't possibly write down here at 3:00am in the morning. I am supposed to be deadly tired. On the contrary I am so alert and excited. I feel I am surrounded by warm pink clouds of love!

Almighty power that controls the universe, I only have one wish. Please don't make my loved ones suffer when I go to the other side of life. Please let then know what a happy life I've had and will continue to be happy in "the other world" watching them, talking to them, feeling them. Assure them that they will feel me too. I will even be happier without pain and will be able to do a lot more for them and with them.

5/21/94(Sat.) clear and nice

Joi called at night. He seems to be fine but should control his schedule better. He seems much too busy.

6/2/94(Thur.) clear and nice

Joi is coming home tomorrow. Everybody is anxious to have him back.

10 Comments

Joi,

Thank you for sharing this with us. I am glad you felt compelled to share this excerpt. Although I believe she had urged you to do so ... from the other side.

This makes my heart smile, reading this excerpt. In a strange way, I feel it was also a message for me. This must be the reason why I am still awake going through fb ...

I caught this post on #fb. I'm glad I did.

Joi, truly, your Mom is with you. :-)

Happy New Year!

Carmen

Thanks for sharing. She must have been an amazing women, I share her thoughts.

The amazingly powerful and humbling story of mankind in which all of us write a little sentence; and we each may not realize it until our mentors keep guiding and watching us from "the other world" until our children one day take up the torch.

Nice post, Joi, and thanks for sharing -- particularly timely for me, and really awesome.

Also, glad you took your mom's advice and got control of your schedule. :-P

I really loved that you shared this. The energy of our parents and our thoughts of them is the very reason why I know we must have a soul. She brought love, life, and awareness and meaning into your universe. She is a part of your fabric and these words have an indescribable meaning. My family is my heart and soul; thank you for the reminder Joi.

-Lilly

MAHALO, DEAR JOI, 4 SHARING WITH ME UR MOM'S WISDON & GRACE!
SPECIAL MAHALO 2 OUR MUTUAL FRIEND HAL PLOTKIN (WITH WHOM I SPOKE YESTERDAY, HE'S LOVING BEING NOW SPECIAL SENIOR ADVISER 2 MARTHA KANTER, BARACK OBAMA'S UNDERSECRETARY OF EDUCATION - FOR HIGHER EDUCATION IN THE U.S.) ) - FOR HIS BRINGING ME TO MEET UR MOM - WHEREUPON I GOT A DOUBLE BONUS, MEETING U & ORIGINATING OUR FRIENDSHIP NEAR 30 YEARS AGO.

+ MAHALO 4 SHARING UR PASSAGE TO SETH GODIN - ESPECIALLY 'It's time we listen to children and allow neoteny to guide us beyond the rigid
frameworks and dogma created by adults.'

TOWARD THAT END, TOWARD DEVELOPING OUR INNATE CAPACITIES FOR SO BECOMING & BEING - I EXPECT U WILL B PLEASED 2 LEARN THAT I (+ HOPEFULLY MY GREAT PARTNER BOB REASONER) AM PROPOSING THAT WE COMPOSE & PUBLISH AN UPDATING TOME RE ADVANCING THE CAUSE & EXISTENCE & PRACTICE OF NURTURING WITHIN EACH & EVERY ONE OF US HUMAN BEINGS THAT BASIC SELF ESTEEM WHICH IS OUR BIRTHRIGHT - OUR HOPE - + NOW OUR DESTINY!

JV

Joi,

This is the most lovely of posts. I thank you. You had quite a mentor!

Warm regards,
Scott

Great post. Thanks Joi. It's a great reminder to spend time on the things we cherish.

Great post. Thanks Joi
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Joi,

I enjoyed reading this and your blog on education and what you learned from Wrestling. I think we'll connect about CC and CDD at some point. Thanks for sharing.

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